I got gastro last week and ended up in alot of pain with my wound.
Im getting down alot lately because i want my life back, Cancer took so much from me & I want to get back to the way i was before i got cancer, I want the happy healthy me back.
I was just starting to get back to exercising when i got gastro, now i feel like my body has gone back so far.
Im starting to get scared again because I have my first 3 month check on the 17th since my surgery, I have to have the tests & scans every 3 months for the first 2 years to make sure the Cancer doesnt pop up somewhere else, then every 6 months for the next 2 years then once a year after that. I wont officially be declared "Cancer Free" till i reach the 5 year mark but as far as im concerned im Cancer free now because it was contained in my uterus and they took that out.
Im still only starting out on my journey and have a long way to go, I still have nightmares that are horrible and im hoping one day not have them.
I still struggle alot and not being able to workout doesnt help, Im missing my workouts alot. I can walk 2kms but im buggered at the end of it & end up in pain, but before my surgery i was walking 10kms with my husky, so its taken alot for me to admit that yes im struggling from day to day.
I know i will get better and i know my body just needs time to heal but i do wish it didnt take so bloody long.
My Wedding is a little bit over a year away and on y wedding day i dont want to be a fat bride, I want to be a healthy fit birde oh and of course with a little bit of sexy ;-)
Anyway i better be off now but i promise i will try to write more often.
Thank you for your support
Thank you for your support
Love Always
Mandy
