Our Engagement Party

Sorry i havent written in a couple of weeks.
I have been super busy & have been going through alot.
I thouhgt i would put up a few pics from our engagement party for you all to see.
We had our Engagement party on Saturday night, We had a a amazing night filled with lots of laughter, I teared up a little bit when i did my speech but they were happy tears.
My dress fitted and was beautiful, i was really worried it wouldnt fit but it was perfect.
Rob of course looked handsome.
The day before our engagement party, rob surprised me by getting me a bunch of flowers delivered.
He also got me a new necklace & earrings as a gift, I love them.

Im a very lucky woman to have such a wonderful man who loves me for me.
I cant wait to our wedding day & the day i finally become his wife.

Anyway i better be off now
Love Always
Mandy

Words spoken in anger leave scars...

On thursday Rob showed me a message he received on Facebook from someone i was really close to and i trusted, It was a message saying they had spoken with a ex friend of mine, They were accusing me of saying mean and nasty things about them , they accused me of being a liar and told Rob they dont want anything to do with me anymore. When Rob showed me the message, i was furious & incredibly hurt, I couldnt believe that this person was saying these things, i thought she knew me better than that, I thought she was one of my best friends.

I left the appointment i was at & then took Rob to his work, I told him i was ok (which yep that was a lie, I wasnt ok) I got into mums car and went to go see mum at the hospital, I cried the whole way to there, then sat in the car for 30 minutes hoping that my tears would dry and mum wouldnt be able to tell i had been crying, she was under enough stress and i didnt want to worry her more. 

When i finally walked in to mums hospital room she of course could tell something was up with me and asked me what it was, i told her about the message because she knew i had a couple of Dr's appointments that day i didnt want her to stress and think it was something to do with my cancer.
I stayed at the hospital with mum for 8 hours till she was finally tired, then i started to drive home, The moment i walked out of the hospital and got in the car i started to cry again, Of all my friends this was the last one i wouldve ever thought would believe lies about me and the last one i thought would ever hurt me.

I was driving home and it wasnt until i was around the corner from her house that i realised i had driven to her house.
I went there to find out what i was being accused of saying, We talked and the things she was told i had said about her were horrible & all lies, i didnt say them. 

You know how you have that 1 friend that you can trust, you can tell them anything, you can be yourself with them and know they wont judge you. Thats what this friend was to me, I thought she knew me better than that.
I find it hard to trust people, i dont let many people in and rarely take down my wall and defences but for this friend i did and i got hurt.

Normally if someone hurts me, then thats it i will walk away from them, but this was a girl who was one of my best friends and her friendship meant alot to me, thats why i went to her house to find out what i was accused of saying.

We talked for hours & we are still friends now but i dont think we will be close again like we once were, because of how hurt i was by it all. 

Even though our friendship was hurt at least i still have my friend. 

But i think i will be putting my wall back up, Ive been hurt by to many friends lately.

When i was a little girl my Grandpa told me to always remember that "Words spoken in anger leave scars", He was a very wise man and was right because this has left a scar.

Love Always
Mandy

xoxo

I did a 40minute drive in 17minutes to save my mums life...

Tuesday night my mum turned up to my house about 10:40pm, in alot of pain, very pale and barely concious.
I drove her to Wodonga hospital, which is about a 40 minute drive from my house, I got her there in 17minutes.
The Dr told me shes very lucky to be alive because with what her body went through when her appendix and bowel burst 95% of people wouldve passed out and died, But she drove 14.5kms to my house and then i got her to hospital super fast.
Im disgusted at how long it took Wodonga hospital to give her pain relief, She seen a nurse 20minutes after we arrived at the hospital and then they told her to wait in the waiting area and it wasnt until another 20mintues when i cracked the shits with the reception that they finally took her in to the emergency ward so she could see a dr, We had to wait another 20minutes before a Dr finally came and seen her.
They didnt give her anything to relieve the pain until 4am and then they told me she would be admitted to the hospital and i had to go home.
Walking out and leaving mum there was hard.
I didnt get much sleep that night, i just kind of tossed and turned, I think i dozed off for a hour if that.
I rang the hospital at 10am the next morning to find out what room she was in before i drove up there, You can imagine how pissed off i was when i found out she was still in the same bed in the emergency ward & they still didnt know what was wrong with her and they were waiting on the CT tech to turn up so she could have a scan to see if that could find something.
I went out to mums place and checked on her animals and got some clothes for her.
When i got to the hospital it was about 1pm, She was still in the same bed, hadnt had much sleep, was still in alot of pain and had been asking the nurse for the past hour to unplug her so she could go to the toilet, This pissed me right off, I had a chat to the nurse and finally got her to do her job and unplug mum from all the machines so she could go to the toilet.
They did alot of tests and scans and finally found out her appendix had wrapped around her bowel, Her appendix burst and also ruptured her bowel as well, she finally got transferred to Albury base where they did emergency surgery at 5pm on Wednesday.
They told me the surgery would take 2 hours max, So imagine how stressed i was when it had been 3 hours and she wasnt out yet, Finally after 3 hours and 45 minutes she was brought out.
She was funny when she came out of surgery because they had given her a "magic button" as mum called it, It was a morphine drip and when she felt pain she had to press the button and the pain went away.
The nurses at Albury were better and a lot nicer, well expect for one, She was a mean horrible bitch.
Because mum had surgery on her appendix and bowel the Specialist said she could have 2 sachets of laxatives if her bowel wasnt working and only if it was a emergency, A male nurse gave her some after lunch  and then when i was there later in the arvo the mean bitchy nurse came in and spoke to mum very nastily and made her have another 2 sachets of laxatives, I was not at all impressed by the way the nurse spoke to mum but i didnt want to upset mum anymore than the nurse already had so i didnt say anything in front of mum, I waited till she was brushing her teeth and the nurse had gone back to the nurses station, I confronted her and had a "friendly" chat with her.
Mum had given me her phone to look after for a few days while she was in hospital, After seeing the way that nasty nurse was i gave mum back her phone incase she needed me and i told her to call me or message me anytime she needed me and i would come back up to the hospital.
Because of the reaction her bowel had to the overdose of laxatives she had to stay in hospital longer, I finally got to pick her up and bring her home on Saturday.
Her body is healing and will take about 8 weeks till she is good again.

It gave me a massive fright seeing mum like that on tuesday night, It was so hard trying to keep her concious on the way to wodonga hospital.

I dont say it very often but I Love my mum and i would do anything to keep her safe and healthy.

I didnt get much sleep from tuesday night till saturday, All up i had 9 hours sleep which is no way near enough, I had a good sleep last night and then had a nap today and im very tired and drained still.
I ran my body into the ground a bit and have been paying for it with alot of pain but i will be ok.

Love Always
Mandy
xoxo

Save a life, Dont text & drive...

On the 4th of December 2012 my friend Brooke Richardson was tragicly taken.
She was only 20 years old and had a bright future in front of her until she made the mistake of texting while driving.
She was the kind of girl who could light up any room, she had the most amazing sense of humour and could make you laugh about almost anything, she even made me laugh about my Cancer when i first got diagnosed.
She always put others before herself, had a heart of gold & a smile that could brighten your day.
When i first met Brooke she took 4 hours to dye and cut my hair because we spent the whole day laughing and joking.
I remember when i first told Brooke about my Cancer, she was the first person that didnt give me that "aww poor you look" all she did was give em a hug and tell me im strong and will beat it.
The next time i seen her she told me she had googled my Cancer and was excited to tell me the ribbon for it is orange and thats her favourite colour.
When i first told her about my new fitness kick when i started my weight loss journey, she was very proud i could see that, she would occasionally just turn up where i was working out just so i had someone to workout with.
She was a beautiful girl and a wonderful friend and i will miss her dearly.

Her parents have started a campaign to raise awareness & stop people texting and driving.

Here is a link to the youtube video Brookes mum Vicki made.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KA9hMHSeivo

Here is a link to the facebook page they set up for the campaign
http://www.facebook.com/dont.tx.n.drive

To get the links to work copy & paste them to your browser bar.

So please lets get behind them and support them in there campaign to stop texting & driving
Lets stop another family from losing their loved one.
Lets stop another friend from losing their friend.

I promise to never touch my mobile again while driving, so if you send me a message and it takes me a while to reply please be patient as i might be driving.
All it takes is 1 second and you can lose your life
Please dont let Brookes death be in vain lets get the message out there.

Love Always
Mandy
xoxo
P.S. Rest in Peace Brooke.