Everyday is a struggle but its worth it... Im Alive & im thankful...

So after many emails asking me for a photo of my scar here it is.

Im finally healing & i am slowly getting my life back on track, I can now walk 2kms with only a little bit of pain but to be honest even though i have pain, it feels great to be back walking again and im hoping to be able to run again soon.
I still struggle with many things from day to day but im slowly finding my way through it.
I still cry alot, When i do i try to remind myself that my ugly scar is actually beautiful because it means IM ALIVE & that in itself is something to be thankful for. 

Im looking forward to getting my life back & not taking any moment for granted.
After my surgery I fell off the healthy wagon for a short while due to being a emotional eater and just giving in to it however now im taking my life back and im not giving in.
Im very proudly back on the healthy wagon & I will lose weight and gain health, I will give myself a reason to be proud of my body.
I have 16 months until I marry my wonderful fiancé and on my wedding day i want to be beautiful & feel beautiful, We are going to Western Australia for our honeymoon and i want to be able to have a body that can go to the beach and wear a bikini top and shorts without people calling green peace to let them know a whale beached themselfs, So its time to get my arse into gear and get moving, Im going to take it slow to start with and build my workouts back up, im hoping to be back at my full workout in 8 weeks.
Anyway i better be off now 

Wish me luck & stay tuned because I will be posting more frequently after 189 my readers emailed me asking for more posts. (Thank You)

Love Always
Mandy 

xoxo 

Just a short post to keep you all up to date with my progress

Just a short post to keep you all up to date with my progress, Sorry i havent written much lately, I will write more soon. 

My wound is finally starting to heal & with each day that goes by i can feel my body getting better & im now needing the pain killers less and less.

Im going to go see a councillor soon which will help me get through the grieving, I know it sounds strange that my body is grieving, Im not grieving for the Cancer, Im glad thats gone, Im grieving for the loss of the chance to carry my own child & im also having trouble coping with it all, I have trouble even looking in the mirror because my scar i have & i need to get past that or i will have messy hair for the rest of my life.
There's so many things i want to do when im healthy again, I want to get healthy first of course.
Then look out world im coming...

One day i know i will be able to look at my scar & say "Thank you for reminding me im alive"
I just really hope that day isnt to far away...

Well i better be off now

Love Always
Mandy

xoxo