Each workout i do, i do a little extra...

Its amazing just how cruel some people can be take today for example I had someone (who will remain nameless) inbox me on facebook and tell me I should be ashamed of myself because im so open about trying to lose weight & that instead of putting "fat people" down (her words not mine) I should be proud of my size, apparently she is ashamed of the fact that she knows me & some other horrible stuff...
Hmm so to you i say ...
I am NOT ashamed of myself but I am not proud that I gained weight.
I want my fit healthy body back, I dont want to be obese.
I dont want to be the fat girl, I want to be able to walk into a shop & know the clothes fit instead of having to be the one who reaches to the back of the rack and hopes there is a size big enough.
I dont want to be the girl who gets the nasty looks & whispers behind my back.
I want to be able to Run & dance for longer than a few minutes.
I want to not have to worry about sitting on something and breaking it.
I want to look in the mirror and see a refection to be proud of.
But most important of all i want to enjoy life & live it to its fullest instead of sitting on the sides watching it go by.
I have known you for 20 years of my life, you knew me when i was fit & healthy and you knew me at my biggest, you have seen the impact that cancer & my obesity has had on my life and you were one of the first people to congratulate me on doing something to take back my life and yet now you have a go at me because i am proud that i am taking back my life and doing something about it.
Cancer nearly killed me, I wasnt meant to live to see this christmas, I fought back and i won. I will do the same with my weight, I will fight & i will win, i will get back to being fit & healthy, If you cant stand that then im glad you deleted me.
I am going to reach my goal weight & health then i am going to train to be a personal trainer and help other people reach their maximum health as well.
The reward i get from working out is the amount of self pride i am developing, I can now honestly say that for the first time in a long time, I am making myself proud.
I beat Cancer and was given a second chance at life, not many people get that so im not going to waste it.
Im going to live my life my way and Im not apologizing for the fact that I am doing something to better my health.
Tonight i went to the gym and did another workout, Im not going to let someone be little me and put me down, Im not going to give up.
When I was growing up i was taught not to quit, "You start something and you finish it even if you come in last as long as you finish thats all that matters" (Another one of my grandpas wisdoms)
So i am not going to quit, Im going to beat this weight and build a body that i am proud of.
Im going to do it not just for me but for those who lost their life to cancer, Im going to do it for each one of them. I am so thankful to each one of the lovely people that took the time to either comment on my status, Inbox me or sms me to let me know they support me or tell me i am their inspiration, It really made my day reading the kind words from everyone.
I made a promise to my friend Brooke when i first started on my weightloss journey that no matter what i would beat cancer and i would keep going with my weightloss and i would one day be proud of the reflection i see in the mirror, I would get Fit & Healthy.
Sadly Brooke wasnt here to see me achive my goal of beating cancer and she wont be here to see me keep my promise and get fit and healthy, Due to a mistake Brooke made 12 months ago when she was driving, She sent a text message and sadly lost her life.
I still miss her alot but i miss her most when im working out, although it is easier to concentrate on the treadmill or doing weights without her pulling silly funny faces, I miss those though. Because she isnt here anymore when i do my workouts i do a little bit extra for Brooke.
When i reach my goal fitness & health and become a person trainer i know Brooke will be proud. 

Love Always
Mandy
xoxo

I Can Run....

My weight loss is on track, This week I lost 1kg as well as 1cm off my waist, thighs and upper arms.
I still have a long way to go but at least the numbers are heading in the right direction.
I have been doing my workouts at the gym at night time, I find it more peaceful as there is hardly anyone there so its not very noisy.
Iam going great with my workouts, Im really enjoying my healthy way of life. I still have set backs every now and then where i crave junk food and sometimes i give in to it but when i do i have a very small amount and then work extra hard at my next workout.
When i first started back at the gym a month ago i hated the cross trainer machine, I could only do a few minutes before i had enough but i have been working harder and heard at building up my workout and on saturday i did 25mins on the cross trainer going at 9kms, I was buggered and so sweaty when i got off but it was worth it, Same as a month ago i struggled to run at all but now i am back at running again and it feels great.
Now as a warm up i do run walks, Which is where i walk for a minute on the treadmill then run for a minute, It gets the blood pumping and gets my heart rate up.
Im getting stronger every week, after my surgery i couldnt even lift a 3 litre milk container but now i lift 75kgs on the leg press and 30kgs on chest press, I do a variety of weights as well as cardio and i have alot of protein to help with my weight loss as well as help build my muscles back up.
I get a sense of pride after i finish every workout and im looking forward to when i have reached my goal weight, I am going to become a personal trainer so i can help other people out there who think they cant do it, I think its something i will be great at because ive been there, I know how it feels to feel like your not good enough or you cant do it, When really all you need to do is try, take small steps and you will get there, I know because im doing it, Im losing weight, Getting fit & healthy and loving every second of it.
If any of you would like to come work out with me then please feel free.
I am a member of Anytime Fitness and can go to any of their gyms.

Love Always
Mandy
xoxo

My goal outfit FITS....

Well I am full steam into my new healthy living and i have to admit, Im loving it.
I am going to the gym at least 4 times a week as well as i still go for walks with my husky.
I am a full member of Anytime fitness in Wodonga, at the gym i am doing both cardio & weight training, The best feeling comes from after a hard workout.
I started on Plexus the pink drink in the mornings as well just to help kick start my weight loss again, hopefully it will work.
In the 2 weeks since i joined the gym i have only lost 800grams but at least the numbers are going in the right direction and im also building up muscles again.
Rob and I have been planing our Wedding, there is only 311 days to go till our Wedding day, Im excited and nervous at the same time.
I am excited to finally be his wife and im nervous because i want to be fit and healthy but of course i want to look awesome in my dress.
My moods have improved alot since i started working out again, I have noticed though if i dont go to the gym for a day i get really cranky and feel like im letting myself down.
I am on track to achieve my goal of being under 100kgs on my wedding, I just have to keep working hard.
I have already hit my goal for this year, I beat Cancer & I also fit into my goal outfit that i brought at the start of the year and wanted to fit into by christmas, Well actually its a size to big but i dont mind.
Thats the outfit in the photo at the top of the page.
Well anyway i better be off.
I will write again this week.

Love always
Mandy
xoxo
p.s. Wish me luck for tomorrows weigh in