Today I went shopping for my Wedding dress and I FOUND IT...

Today I woke up feeling excitment as well as a nerves and a little bit of fear, Today was the day...Wedding Dress Shopping. 

So many thoughts went through my mind, What if i cant find the perfect dress? what if i cant find one that makes me feel like a princess? How will i know if I find the right dress? and then the worst question of all...What if nothing fits? 

I had set aside a whole day just for dress shopping & googled where the wedding dress shops are in Albury/Wodonga.

The first store I went into was Billion $ Dreams which is owned by Peta Schaefer, the store is beautiful and has so many stunning gowns. Peta was lovely, very friendly and welcoming, she asked a few questions about the style of dress I was looking for & with in a few minutes she had picked some to show me, then let me go through all her gowns and see if there was any she had missed that I would like to try on, all the dresses were gorgeous but the 3 Peta had chosen were stunning and stood out from the rest. Peta helped me try them on and let me take my time with deciding which one I was happy with, the first dress I put on was a style that Peta picked for me, I loved the dress but was unsure on 1 thing on the dress but loved everything else about it, however as soon as Peta put it in me & I seen myself in the mirror standing in that beautiful gown, I knew that it was the perfect dress for me,  I felt like a princess. I tried on the other 2 but decided that I wanted to try on the first one again & yep I was right it was the dress for me, the way it looked, the way it felt & the glow I had beaming from me proved that yes it was the one, Peta had found my dream dress and all with in just a few minutes, I stayed in the dress dancing & giggling with my Mum, Aunty Pam, Prue & my MOH Melly. 

They all agreed with me that yes it was my dress. 

I'm so excited to have finally found my dress, I looked around for so long and didn't find that 1 dress I loved and yet it took Peta just a few questions and she knew straight away what the perfect dress was, that's just how good she is at her job. 

I highly reccommend if your looking for a wedding gown then make the trip to Billion $ Dreams and see Peta, she will be able to find you the gown for you. 

I would love to tell you every little detail of my dress, but I want it to be a surprise on my Wedding Day. 

Thank you to Peta for my dream wedding dress. 

On my Wedding day I know I will feel like a Princess because of Billion $ Dreams.

Love always 

Mandy

xoxo

Billion $ Dreams website is: http://www.bridalworld.com.au

I was asked how did i feel when i was first diagnosed...

Ive been asked a few times  how did I feel when I was diagnosed and how do I feel now?
Well to put it simply, Terrified.
When I was first diagnosed I was terrified but at the same time, I felt like it was all just a bad dream that I couldnt wake up from.
I still get nervous and scared when its time for me to have my tests done, Theres always that little voice in my mind that says "what if it comes back", Every strange feeling or bit of pain that I get, my mind still goes straight to the thought "Please dont return".
When I heard my specialist tell me I had cancer, to me it was almost like a out of body experience, My first thought was "this cant be true, It cant be happening to me, Im to young, I havent lived my life yet".
For a few weeks after I was diagnosed I was waiting for the phone to ring with someone telling me it was a mistake and that I didnt have cancer, Sadly that call didnt come.
The first 6 months were hell, I chose not to tell people to start with because I needed time to deal with it myself. Rob & I only told a few people that we are closest to.
I came up with a different excuse why not to tell people, There were peoples birthdays, anniversary's, holidays, weddings and just about everything else in between, It was a very busy 6 months and it was hard to go out in public and face the world when all I wanted to do was crawl up in a ball, cry and forget the rest of the world existed, But instead I put on my fake smile, Took a breath, faced the world and pretended that nothing was wrong.
When I finally decided it was time to tell people, That was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. If you have been following my blog from the start then you will already know that when I told people about my diagnoses, I had some family & friends walk out of my life.
Just incase being diagnosed with cancer wasnt bad enough, then I had to deal with that as well.
I had some friends come back into my life and I also made some amazing new ones.
Everyday I lived in fear that I was going to die but I still got up, put on a smile and faced the world.
I guess i still kind of live with the same fear now, although it is a little bit different because now I fear that my cancer will return, Every ache or pain I get, that is my first thought.
I had my 1 year tests done this week and I am waiting for the results to come back, although my specialist is confident that there is no sign of it returning yet.
I got the results from my scans and there is no sign of it in my lungs which is awesome news.
So I will try not to worry to much about the other tests.

I will let you know how I go.
Love Always

Mandy
xoxo