Nearly every wedding I have been to the Bride has been able to do a Father Daughter Dance but yet with my Wedding cant do that because my father and i dont talk & as you would know if you have read my blog post called "One last call" it is unfixable, after everything that he said and done, nothing he has ever said hurt as much as when he didnt believe me I had cancer.
My mum and dad are divorced and dont get along at all, a lot of the times when i was growing up i felt like i was in the middle, but no matter what my mum has always been there for me.
So i find myself having those moments when i just want a "normal family", just for 1 day, even just for a few moments.
When I was a little girl and thought of my Wedding I always dreamed of something out of a story book, everyone getting along, yummy food, lots of candles, fairylights everywhere, a happy bride & groom, a loving family and of course a father daughter dance, On my wedding day I wont be able to do a father daughter dance and well it makes me sad.
Is it to much to ask for to have a normal caring family for even just 4 minutes, just 1 song?
I seen my dad last week in wodonga, it was so hard running into him and upset me a lot.
I still dont understand how a father can turn their back on their only daughter when they are going through cancer and even though now that im cancer free, the pain of having my dad turn his back on me, is still there.
Love Always
Mandy
xoxo
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