My Godfather, My Guardian Angel...

This is a photo of my uncle Rossi who is also one of my godfathers.

Sadly on the 4th of April 1988 he was tragicly killed in a car accident on his way to see me, He was only 24 years old. This year on the 22nd of July would be his 50th birthday and sadly he wont be here to celebrate.
I dont remember much about him but i remember the important things.
Like his smell, i have no idea what the name of it was but i could pick that scent out anywhere because when i smell it, it brings back a memory i have of him picking me up laughing and throwing me in the air when i was only little.
I remember his smile and laugh, I remember that even though he was really tall i always felt safe in his arms & he gave the best cuddles.
I still remember when my mum told me that he wouldnt be coming to see me anymore and that he had gone to heaven, I was only 3 years old and for a long time i didnt understand where he was.
He had a beautiful fiancée named Allison at the time and i still remember the way he used to look at her, You could tell he loved her with all his heart and that she was his world, Im lucky to see that look again only now its when Rob looks at me. 
It took me many years to understand that Rossi had died, when i was little i remember so many times i would ask my mum why we got to see Aunty Al but Uncle Rossi was not with her when she would come to visit and mum would have to explain it to me again.
He had a heart of gold, he was kind, gentle & caring, he was the kind of Godfather that every little girl should have.
All my life i have blamed myself for Rossi's death even though i was only 3 years old when he died and i wasnt driving the car that hit them, he was coming to see me.
For many years i lost touch with Allison but a few years ago i was lucky enough to have her come back into my life again.
She has a beautiful family and a great husband, they have made both Rob and i feel very welcome in there lives. Its great to see that shes found happiness and love in her life after such a tragic moment and i know Rossi would be happy to see her smiling again.
A couple of years ago she gave me the Engagement ring the Rossi proposed to her with, it is now my most treasured possession and i wear it on a necklace around my neck so its always close to my heart.
Rossi has been gone now for 25 years, he has missed alot of my life and theres been alot of times when ive needed him, I know if he could be there he would and the times i need him his never really far away i just cant see him anymore.
I visit his grave alot, its my "quiet place" and even though its hard to go there, in a way it brings me comfort so i try to take over some flowers at least once a fortnight and i sit and talk to the headstone for a bit, I feel weird talking to the headstone but its the only way i can talk to him.

I hope he is proud of the woman i have grown up to be.

If i could have one wish on my wedding day it would be an easy one to make, I would wish for him to be there to see me marry the love of my life.

Even though i was only 3 years old when he died, he left a imprint on my life that will last a lifetime

Rest In Peace Uncle Rossi
I Love & miss you very much
My Godfather for a short time
Now my Guardian Angel for a lifetime.


Love always
Mandy
xoxo