When it rains it pours

You know that old saying "When it rains it pours", Well after the day ive had today, its certainly pouring.
Today our car broke down in the heat, it was our 1 car that we had on the road and my Hubby to be used it for work everyday, now its broken and the stress has set in yet again. We have another car thats unregistered and sadly we dont have the money to get it put on the road, and we dont know anyone who could lend us a car.
We were broken down in the heat and in the first 2 hours roughly 150 cars went past and the sad thing is only 4 people stopped and asked us if we need a drink or to call someone, One man in a ute went past then came back with 2 beers, which was really nice of him ( i dont drink anymore because of my cancer meds but today i really couldve gone a nice cold beer)

It makes you think what is society coming to when they will drive past someone thats clearly broken down in the heat. 

My Uncle and Aunty came and picked us up but we couldnt fix the car and its still there on the side of the road and in a bad area, so knowing our luck someone will steal it or burn it and then we wont have a car at all. 
We cant even get a loan to buy a new car because about 6 or 7 years ago i was driving robs VT Calais when a drunk driver crashed in to me, the drunk had no money, no job and didnt even have a licence so we were stuck paying for the repairs on Robs car as it wasnt insured for me to drive, The repairs cost 15 thousand dollars so we got a loan and are still struggling to pay that back, then with me having Cancer and the cost of everything the bills just keep piling up and to be honest im not sure if we will ever get infront. We are renting a house because we cant afford to buy a house, so of course we are always having to move because either the house sells or the rent goes up. I would give anything to be able to move into a house and just stay there without moving but there doesnt appear to be anyone willing to rent someone a house long term these days. All i have ever wanted was somewhere to call home...
It seems like all my dreams are being taken away one at a time.

Lately ive been thinking "havent we been through enough", they say bad things happen in 3s, well ive had my fair share and im not sure what number of 3s im up to now but theres only so much 1 person can take, Just when i thought i hit rock bottom another bad thing happens and i realise no i wasnt at rock bottom but now i am. 

We have our Engagement party in 47 days and im meant to be excited about it but yet im stressed about how we are going to be able to pay for everything and now to top it off without a car how are we going to get there?

All i wanted was to be able to finally celebrate something good after all the bad things that have happened over the past few years. 

Wouldnt it be nice if even just for 1 night i was able to enjoy myself with my wonderful fiancé and our friends and family... 

I know people say "what doesnt kill you will make you stronger" Ive always been fairly strong but now im struggling.

I think if i have a guardian angel they must have gone on a holiday.

Love Always

Mandy

xoxo