On friday i had my appointment at the Mercy Womans Hospital in Melbourne, The specialist was a very nice lady and the hospital is nice and clean.
I finally got a date for my surgery, Tuesday 16th of April, so i only have 5 weeks to go till my surgery.
I have so much going through my mind at the moment, Im terrified of the surgery and the pain that will follow but at the same time im excited to finally be getting the surgery and getting rid of the Cancer.
I know this sounds strange because i know i was told my Cancer hasnt responded to treatment and that i wont be able to have a baby but in a way i think the date of the surgery has hit me so hard because deep in my mind i think i was waiting for them to say it was a mistake and i can have a baby, I dont think it all sunk in just how bad my Cancer is till i seen the Oncology specialist and she started explaining my surgery to me, My Cancer is too big for me to have key hole surgery & so are the cysts on my ovaries so she explained i will be cut from hip to hip so i will be in hospital for a while.
While i was at my appointment i asked my Oncology specialist can they organise a councillor for me to talk to and she said she will get someone from the hospital to contact me because i shouldve been seeing a councillor since i got diagnosed and they will make sure i can talk to someone after my surgery as well.
Today its all hitting me and im feeling very down, Ive cried alot today.
Anyway i better be off now.
Love Always
Mandy
xoxo
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